f4f3 | "It was Spring, and everything woke up."

The car thermometer was reading 15 C. today, which was either a mistake or very strange indeed. But it does feel springlike. I've started coming across snowdrops in my morning walks, and the nights are drawing out.
So I have sort of a duty to wake up.
Don't get me wrong, I've had a very enjoyable winter. I've had plenty of love, plenty of companionship, and mentally I'm in a better place than I've been for years. I'm living where I want to be, and I have a great circle of friends. A brilliant son. And my pets, which is no small thing.
But I've let a couple or three things drop. I've moaned elsewhere about my weight: it's gone from 107 kg last January to 92kg in May to 100kg at the start of February. Better than my worst, not as good as my best. Since I've got type 2 diabetes, and I'd like to continue controlling that by diet, my weight is a big deal, and my eating habits even more so. So, rather than keep whining, I'm doing something about it. Lent is a good excuse to give up booze and sweets, cakes and junk food. I'm trying to concentrate on what I AM eating (only food - mostly plants) instead of what I'm missing out on. I'm stepping up the exercise plan, hoping to got to 5 vigorous half-hour sessions per week. When I was losing weight last year, that was up to about 8 a week, but I'm not sure I'll manage that. Still, I've managed two visits to the gym and a two-hour badminton session so far this week.

I need to start meditating again - I'm less focused when I forget to do that, less integrated.

I also need to get going on the work front. If I want to stay self-employed, I'm going to have to book some days. If I can't, I need to find someone to work for. And I need to sort that by the end of March, or I'm out of money.

I lost a day, today. I was convinced it was Wednesday, not Thursday. That's disgraceful, and a wake-up call if ever I heard one.

I'm quite happy to have made these decisions, now I just have to act on them. I'll be acting "as if" - "As if" I was the sort of person who controlled their diet, "as if" I was the sort of person who exercises by default, "as if" I was the sort of person who meditated every day.

And I'll see how it goes.