Change of Plan...
Mar. 29th, 2008 08:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
f4f3I was planning to be at the cottage this weekend, then I was supposed to be staying here, and now there's a bit of a compromise...
I had a call from my son last night before I went out where he made it clear that he needed a break from University and his surroundings, and I rushed to invite him to spend some time at the cottage. So he's driving up tonight, and we're heading up to Kintyre tomorrow, leavingunblinkered to play hostess to deililly when she staggers in from gigging at some ungodly hour.
M and I will stay up in the wilds until Thursday, when he has to head back down south. I'll probably hang on up there until the weekend, whenunblinkered is going to come up and join me.
Amongst other things, this is going to the the longest time I've spent with M for over a year, and the longest I've been continually at the cottage. While I'm there I'll hear if I'm getting the job I interviewed for on Friday. Financial constraints mean I really want it, and it also promises to be quite interesting. I won't say anything else for fear of jinxing it.
So next week will either be my last chance to chill out, or a taste of how I'll be living for the next six months or so.
Hmm.
I had a call from my son last night before I went out where he made it clear that he needed a break from University and his surroundings, and I rushed to invite him to spend some time at the cottage. So he's driving up tonight, and we're heading up to Kintyre tomorrow, leaving
unblinkered to play hostess to deililly when she staggers in from gigging at some ungodly hour. M and I will stay up in the wilds until Thursday, when he has to head back down south. I'll probably hang on up there until the weekend, when
unblinkered is going to come up and join me. Amongst other things, this is going to the the longest time I've spent with M for over a year, and the longest I've been continually at the cottage. While I'm there I'll hear if I'm getting the job I interviewed for on Friday. Financial constraints mean I really want it, and it also promises to be quite interesting. I won't say anything else for fear of jinxing it.
So next week will either be my last chance to chill out, or a taste of how I'll be living for the next six months or so.
Hmm.
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Date: 2008-03-30 04:47 am (UTC)More importantly, good luck connecting with M.....one of the huge disappointments so far for me has been how distant my relationship with my son has been. He is 19 and the worst part of it is that I see so much of the parts of me that I dislike (wrong description but but you know what I mean I hope) in him and I immediately react to those traits. I know I do it and I know that I shouldn't but I can"t help myself.
Use that father/son time wisely grasshopper.
PS. I watched the pilot of Firefly tonight for the first time since I was at the cottage last year...it brought back a lot of memories of what seems like a lifetime ago.....wow, what a maudlin post in so many ways!
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Date: 2008-03-30 10:28 am (UTC)Don't be so hard on yourself - you only don't see the good things you've given your son because Western society's obsession with "improvement" has made us so much better at seeing the bad in ourselves than the good.