Not Dead Yet

[f4f3]

It's been a while...

Some things got better, some things got worse, some things... Some things stay the same.

I'm having problems with high blood pressure, which are the some problems I've had for a couple of decades with high BP, except now they  are being taken more seriously.

Work is problematic. I've gone from making a really hard situation work into a totally new situation which is really hard and I might not be able to make it work. I'm feeling slightly better about this one, since it's become obvious that it's not about me, it's about, oh, lots of things. Politics, overselling before I got involved, a customer with their own (large, real) issues. Still, it was touch and go for a couple of weeks.

Some good things are happening. My finances are broadly good. The tax issues are still there, pushed out another year, but I'm still having to make the annoyingly virtuous decisions rather than the conveniently hedonistic ones. So no summer holiday planned yet. On the other hand, I did buy new art and a very fine looking Ganesha this month, so I'm not exactly penurious.

I'm walking 10,000 steps a day, and keeping (more or less) to the 5:2 diet, and I'm down about half a stone in the last month, so that feels good.

Prague was a good move, as ever. Bill and Radka took good care of me, and the city obliged with appropriate weather (grey and wet for the Jewish quarter, bright and sunny for the hills over the town).

I had what would have been a hilarious if it hadn't been sad episode with an ex, where I delivered a piece of correspondence to her because I thought it might be important, only to have it returned with her name scored out and "Mooney" written in instead. I can remember when I had a forename, but that was then and this is now. Coupled with her cutting me dead whenever we cross paths, I'm really, really keen never to see her again, and I never thought I'd say that.

I have a cold that won't go away - in fact, it's moved into my chest and it's making itself at home. Hopefully another 10 o'clock bedtime will help shift it.

Sorry if this sounds like a downer. I'm actually in far better shape than I was a couple of months ago (and posting is a good sign of that) but hey, it's a Sunday night, I have four and a half thousand steps still to take today.

It's shaping up to be an interesting summer...

Comments

[nicnac.livejournal.com]

It's really good to hear how you're doing. And you haven't written a downer at all, it's great that you're not skint and are taking care of yourself - I hope that has an effect on the blood pressure. Sorry to hear work is meh, project management seems to involve a peaks and troughs nature, so fingers crossed the rise comes soon.

And the stuff with the ex? That's her stuff, not your stuff. Physically shake yourself, visualising shedding her attitude like a wet dog shakes off droplets of water, and remember that we think you're fab :)

[f4f3.livejournal.com]

Yes to the peaks and troughs. On my lowest day with the current customer, I learned that the previous one had nominated me for an award. So it must all balance out somewhere.

It is her stuff. Very much so. It hurts me, but only because I let it hurt me. So move on, move on, and don't fire the second arrow.

[slobberpuppy.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to see you back here, and always happy to see you in other spots as well. I'm sorry that there are rough patches, but glad that you feel that some of them are smoothing out. Having to be annoyingly virtuous in one's decisions is a struggle, it's been what Ty and I have had to deal with these past few years, and I'm happy we finally have a little more wiggle room... Still digging our way out, but the lip of the hole is getting ever closer!

Tyler and I think about Scotland all of the time. I had a dream that we were visiting you just the other night! In the dream, Ty became right spammer'd in the pub, and then was caught pilfering candy at the concession stand when we went to see a movie. The police came and hauled him off, you and I became separated, and then I was trying to find my way back to yours in the dark midnight hour of a rainy night in Glasgow.

Adventures. You and your wonderful homeland have stuck with us. I hope we'll get the chance to visit with you again in the next few years!

Love to you - and the Ganseha is GORGEOUS.

[f4f3.livejournal.com]

I promise that if your drunk hubby gets hauled off by the 5-0h (they do get called that here) then I will not leave you in the rainy dark. So come on back :)

Hello lovely x

[jen-c-w.livejournal.com]

chest colds are horrid. BOO. Shift it before next week please :)
Work sounds hassley but like it's gradually resolving itself.
Sorry about the ex stuff, but you know clear lines and all that...

Re: Hello lovely x

[f4f3.livejournal.com]

I have the feeling that I wouldn't know a clear line if I found it in Euclid. But, you know.


And I'll be lurgi free by next week, I'm sure.

[parthenia14.livejournal.com]

Nice to you see you again. Commiserations on the lurgy, I had something similar last week and was completely wiped out by it. Here's hoping it clears soon.

Employment is a strange strange beast. I think I still have the temp mindset, that I can disappear at any point. Even if it's not quite true these days.

New art, eh? What kind of art? *is curious*

[f4f3.livejournal.com]

If I manage to get out of bed, I'll take pictures of the art :)