This started out as a comment response, and sort of got out of control… apologies for length - I can't make lj cuts work on my iPhone.
I was born into a Communist family some 45 years ago.
Shortly after I was born, my parents took me to be registered as a Communist. They were accompanied by two friends, who each swore that if I died they would take on the responsibility of bringing me up as a Communist.
When I was five, I started my education at the local Communist school. You could tell it was a Communist school from the name (all Communist schools are named after important Communists of the past) and the Communist symbols hung in the halls and in every classroom.
There were other schools nearby, all of them Socialist, but it was never in doubt that I (and my sister, and later my brother) would go to the Communist school.
Along with classes in reading, writing and arithmetic, there were daily classes in the Communist life. Partly these consisted of learning by rote the answers to a book full of pictures from the life of Marx and questions about communism. There was a correct Communist response to any situation, and we learned it. As each year passed, there would be a new, slightly more sophisticated book of questions, with fewer pictures and more questions.
If we got the answers wrong we would be punished by being made to write the correct responses out hundreds of times, or occasionally we would be beaten (beatings were common for any infraction of the rules). Good students were rewarded with gold stars, or special junior versions of Communist writers to keep (I still remember the prize I got when I was 9. It was far and away the best made book I’d own until I was 17 and at University).
Also every day there would be meetings where our teacher would read out loud various passages from Das Kapital, and we would make rote responses. Once a week we would be taken to larger meetings where a full time Party functionary would also read aloud from the works of 20th Century socialists, as well as a passage from Kapital. There were also special holidays to honour particular great Communists from the past, and once a year everyone would be given a day off work to celebrate Marx’s birthday (I remember being irked that non-Communist Socialists, and even people of no Socialist leaning at all, celebrated the holiday and got the day off).
When I was 7 my classmates and I were prepared by extra readings and questioning for a group induction into being full members of the Party. We were each given a copy of Kapital and had a special Party breakfast. We were all dressed up as if we were adults. The girls all wore wedding dresses, to symbolise the fact that they were being married to Karl Marx. The girls’ parents put a lot of work and money into those dresses – even the poor ones.
At the age of 10 we all renewed the pledges to the Party that our parents had made for us when we were born. To help us feel closer to the Party, we were all allowed to choose a new name for ourselves from the list of great Communists of the past.
Not long after that, I was allowed access to the original Communist texts for myself. Partly this was because I’d shown an aptitude for learning my lists of answers, partly because I’d volunteered to help out at the local Party office. This office, like all the others, had special roles for Young Patriots up till the age of about 14 to assist in Party meetings. Obviously there were a lot of ribald comments about what the officials would get up to with pre-pubescent boys, but I never saw any of that sort of thing going on. It was, however, the first time I tasted wine, when I had a swig from the special stocks the functionaries kept for their meetings.
I suppose my disenchantment with the Party set in round about then. Partly through my “behind the scenes” views of what happened when ordinary Party members weren’t around, partly because of some obvious differences I was spotting in the works of Marx and Engels. Another influence would be my father – although he paid lip service to the Party line, he didn’t attend the weekly meetings, and he even had some non-Communist friends. I don’t think that contributed to my parents’ divorce, but our local part functionary did. My sister had a pretty serious accident at the time. She was run over by a motor-cycle, and for a while there was a possibility that she would lose her leg. The Party official visited her in hospital, and told my mother, over her daughter’s sick bed, that the accident was a punishment for her getting divorced.
I guess that’s the day I stopped being a Catholic.
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